The beginning..

Assalamualaikum dan salam sejahtera ^_^ Wahh, skema kau dah lama tak update blog. Berhabuk -_-
Okay, How do I start this? Erm, since ramai yg bertanya, nak sgt tahu, ramai sgt yang dah inbox kt FB, yg tak kenal pun ada, pasal macam mana jes boleh berminat untuk memeluk agama Islam. Panjanggg ceritanya. Tapi sebelum jes mulakan, ingin jes tekankan di sini, jes berminat dgn agama Islam bukan sebab agama asal jes tak sempurna. Semua agama sama, semua menuju ke arah kebaikan. Hanya cara kita yang berbeza. Jes hanya nak share pengalaman jes yg dari dulu cuba mendekati agama Islam, macam mana jes bagitau parents.. semua2 lah jes akan cerita. In shaa Allah, Jes akan cuba update sikit2.. Jes pn akan cuba pendekkan cerita, so that tak la panjang sgt.. kang boring pula baca.. hehe! So, here we go..

Bismillah...

Cahaya Jessica 
Ketika masih kecil - Part One

Bermulanya masa jes baru masuk tadika. Nak pula dlm satu kelas tu, hanya dua tiga org yg bkn beragama Islam termasuk jes. Jadinya, bila sesi belajar menulis jawi and mengenal huruf, kami yg bkn beragama Islam ni akan disuruh mewarna. Masa cikgu tu tengah ajar menyebut huruf jawi satu-persatu, masa tu dah mula berfikir, kenapa huruf tu lain. Masa tu jes dah rasa huruf2 tu "unik". Tertanya juga masa tu kenapa jes tak boleh ikut belajar sama? Tu je yang jes ingat masa jes tadika.

Lepas tu, masuk pula ke sekolah rendah. Bila sekolah rendah, setiap kali masa perhimpunan mesti akn ada baca doa. Bila balik rumah, biasa lah bila kita kecik2, suka main sorang2.. mcm main pondok2 tu.. main mak2.. tapi jes dulu main sorang2... hahaha! So bila main sorang2 tu, jes "lakonkan" balik masa perhimpunan tu.. and jes buat la mcm baca doa.. masa tu apa jes sebut pun tak tau lah.. entah bunyi ape pun tak tau.. Nak buat lagi kelakar, jes masa kecik2 dulu agak tomboy sikit.. so jes siap buat songkok guna manila kad. Jes buatlah mcm baca doa masa perhimpuanan tu.. Haha! Adoi.. Masa tu minat jes tengok kawan2 yg beragama Islam belajar menulis jawi tetap sama.. Macam biasa, balik rumah.. jes "lakonkan" balik.. buat2 lah dalam kelas menulis jawi.. entah macam mana jes tulis belit2 tu pun tak tau... Hehehe :)

Buat masa ni, ni je dulu jes update.. Ni je yang jes boleh ingat utk malam ni.. Dah pukul 10, otak dah lemmbb skit. nanti jes akan pergi ke part two. Wah! macam buku.. hahaha..
Sambung lagi nanti yeee :)

Selamat malam!



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I'm back :)

Wahhh, Its been a while kan?

Dah lama tak update

The reason behind isss

because my latest post

Pasal my late cousin

Yeah, u know what i mean

Sigh.

Whatever it is, kita kena let go

dan kita yg masih hidup ni

Teruskan hidup kan 

(I miss you cousin) 

Tiba2 rasa nak aktif blogging balik

Since lately cam banyak aktiviti

banyak ilham menulis benda ngarut

Hahahahaha

Okay! buat masa ni

biarlah ni dulu

Cukup sekadar nak bagitau yang

I'm back!

Heeeee :D

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RIP Spencer Koh

Sorang lagi sepupu aku pegi awal pagi tadi

dah sorang, sorang pegi

sangat2 tak sangka

cepatnye lah die pergi tinggalkan kitaorang

tak sangka plak Gawai tahun ni last kita celebrate sama2 kan?

Tak sangka plak chat kita lewat malam hari selasa lepas yang last

tak pernah2 kita chat dalam fb, tiba2 aku ditegur

kenapa cepat sangat?

Sape nak jadi penyeri kitaorg gawai nanti?

My very last time talking to you :"(

Xmas 2008 :"(

Rest in peace cousin

You will be missed

We loves you so much!!

SPENCER KOH

(22 SEPTEMBER 1991 - 13 OCTOBER 2011)

T_T

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"A walk in the park"

I'm kinda a bit stress lately

Well, a bit? yeah.. "a bit"

And.....

This is how I express my feelings :)

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Tragedi oktober + kasih sayang keluarga

And my October begins with this!!!

Tgn kanan melecur

gara2 menggoreng kuih utk minum petang

bleh plak kuih tu meletup

terbaiklah sakit die

pehhhhhhh, hilang trus macho aku

menangis siot!

sakit gileeeeeeeee

cpt2 mumy ngn dady sapukan minyak gamat

mmg mandi minyak gamat la tgn aku

serius sakitnye, xtau la nk ckp cane

smpai skang still sakit lg

rase isi2 dlm tu tgh masak je

Then tadi, bile aku dh cool down

kakak n abg ipar aku pn dh balik

rumah pn sunyi skejap

aku pn baring2 menahan sakit tgn aku ni

kak bb pn duk main keyboard die

die main lagu "hanya ingin kau tahu-republik"

then terbayang balik mumy n dady sapukan ubat

terbayang kakak2, abg ipar, adik, nenek

duk tgk2 tgn aku yg melecur

pastu tnye mcm mane, ok ke x

tiba2 sentap dalam hati

bersyukurnyeeeee lah aku dapat family mcm ni

buruk2 mane pn aku ni

diorg tetap layan aku elok lagi

x terasa, menangis lagi time tu

aku bersyukur sgt2!!

:")

ok, xnak sedih2

huhuhuhu

skang ni aku jadi OKU skejap

bnyk gunakn tgn kiri

tgn kanan still sakit n pedih lg

peh, masak tgn aku

klu mkn tgn aku sedap ni

pastu letak sos black pepper

Ala2 "medium rare" steak

Hahahahahaha!

kbye :P

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Perjalanan ini

Sedang aku duduk merenung pensyarah

berleter di depan

tiba2 fikiran jauh melayang

memikirkan perjalanan hidup yg tak tahu

apa akhirnya

lalu tangan ku pantas menulis

apa yg tersirat di hati

dan inginku kongsikan di sini

Meharungi jalan yang tidak ketahui arah tujunya

Tertekan rasanya jeritan tak siapa mendengar

Inginku berhenti tapi tak sanggup di hati

Melukakan hati mereka yang berharapan tinggi

Tewasnya aku dalam perjalanan ini

Hanya menunggu tibanya jalan mati

Semoga pada saat itu nanti aku mampu berdiri

Tunjukkan kepada mereka yang belum terbukti

Jiwa memberontak telah lama berputus asa

Terkilan rasa aku membuang masa

Aku menolak peluang yang ada

Takut mereka tidak merestuinya

Bodohnya aku tak tetap pendirianku

Tak mampu bertegas dengan keputusan itu

Mampukah lagi aku mengejar impian itu?

Semakin hari, ku semakin buntu

Sekian.

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Khas buat kamu2 yang kononnya bijaksana

Nasi Lemak 2.0
aku tak tengok pun lagi citer ni
tapi dah macam2 komen aku dengar
aku tak kisah pun citer ni best ke tak best
tapi paling aku tak bleh blah bila org mengutuk si pengarah tu
yg pernah buat silap satu ketika dulu
rasa sedih tiba2
aku pun baru pas baca entry seorang lagi pengarah
and aku tak sangka dia boleh mengkritik smpai mcm tu skali
maka terhasil lah entry aku ni
sblum ni aku tgk pengarah tu sebagai seorang yg bijak
tapi hari ni, smuanya berubah
entah melalut smpai ke mana peginya kritikan dia
kata pengarah NL 2.0 tu seorang komunis

bagi dia, bangsa2 dia yg menonton filem NL 2.0 tu

seolah2 mengkhianati bangsa sndiri

apa yg mengkhianati bangsa sndiri?

salah ke diorg nak tgk filem tu?

Bukan ke filem tu nak menyatukan smua bangsa?
WTH?
aku tak baca habis pun entry tu
sebab tak sanggup
baca komen2 pengikut pengarah tu pun dah cukup
bayangkan la klu diri kita sndiri dihina macam tu
tak pun adik bradik kita, mak ayah kita, sedara mara kita
dihina mcm tu
tiba2 isu racist keluar
konon nak menjaga bangsa sndiri
memperjuangkan bangsa sndiri
begitukah caranya menjaga bangsa sndiri?
dgn menghina bangsa lain?
dgn mencaci bangsa lain?
sangat memalukan
tak sangka begitu ramai rakyat malaysia ni
begitu cetek pemikiran
org tu penah buat silap skali
org tu dah pun meminta maaf
dan dia just nak berbakti pada negara
Kamu2 yang mengutuk dia tu
apa sumbangan kamu?
hormat sgt kah kamu pada malaysia?
hebat sangat kah kamu tak pernah buat silap?
apa istimewanya kamu boleh menghukum dia?
Sampai kamu nak mengharamkan duit kamu
slepas menonton filem dia?
Kamu siapa?
Salahkah kalau seseorang itu nak berubah?
bukan ke kita spatutnya menyokong dia?
bukan terus membenci, mengutuk dia
sekurang2 nya, berilah dia peluang
apa yg aku tau, filem dia bnyk moral
kamu semua hanyalah hpokrit
menidakkan kebenaran yang ada pada filem NL 2.0

Aku bangga dgn Afdlin Shauki dan Adibah Noor
memang dari dulu lagi dua insan ini menjadi pujaan aku
cuma aku sangat2 kecewa dgn seorg lagi pengarah ni
sangat2 tak sangka dia mcm tu skali
seolah2 tak educated langsung
please MALAYSIANS

elok2 kita berbagai bangsa

Malaysia negara yg unik

tapi kamu semua nak hidup berpuak-puak

jangan lah memalukan diri sndiri

jangan berlagak mcm xpernah buat silap
seblum nak menghukum, mencaci, menghina seseorang tu
cermin lah diri sendiri dulu
Silap2 dosa kamu tu lebih besar

dari org yg kamu pandang jijik sgt tu!

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I Quit

Sumpah aku dah penat weh

aku dah x larat dah

nak buat benda yang aku tak suka

makin aku teruskan, makin kuat rasa bersalah

aku tak nak teruskan

boleh tak aku nak buat benda yang aku suka?

boleh tak aku nak kejar cita-cita aku plak?

aku dah banyak buang masa

buat benda yang aku sendiri tak rela

bertahun2 dah aku buat utk buat org lain happy

tapi aku sendiri tak happy

Umur dah nak masuk 24thn

bila lagi aku nak buat keputusan untuk aku sndiri?

:"(

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Mana hilangnya duit ku?

Aku dah x boleh masuk kedai buku skang

stiap kali masuk mesti nak beli buku

kalau academic books xpe jugak kan

ni novel plak

pehhh, kopak aku

hahahahaha!

ade dua buku crita ni yg agak menarik

aku dah baca

The single girls to do list :)
Beli buku ni sebab tgh single dlu

so bila tgk je title die trus nk beli

ni smua angkara kakak aku

jalan crita die menarik la

tp die punye ending kte da bleh agak

mcm drama2 biase

tp okla... hehehehe

Cucur bawang & Kopi 'O' :)

Citer ni pun best!

ade romantik die, kelakar

poyo2 smua ade

comel la citer ni

ending die pn okay

hehehehe :)

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Hantu Bonceng! :D

Went to Aeon Bkt Tinggi for movie just now

with the boyfie

the movie was "Hantu Bonceng"

I can say, it's a MUST watch movie

Funny (Zizan pelakon kan) hehehe

not just that, ade msg penting jgk dlm citer tu

kinda "sentap" jgk la pas tgk td

hehehe!

so hurry up!

Takkan simpan je duit raya tu kot?

hehehehe :)

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That should be me - Justin Bieber lyrics

To whom it may concern:
I dedicated this song for you
I've changed some of the lyrics
so that it suits you
on what you've done to me
And though you can't read this
But I know, one day
you’ll wake up and realize that
you should have appreciated me
For all the days I stood by you
For all the days I stayed
even though I should have left :)


That should be me - Justin Bieber lyrics

Ouuuuuuu
ouuuuuuuu

Everybody's laughing in my mind,
Rumors spreading 'bout this other "girl",
Do you do what you did when you did with me?
Does "she" love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me?
'cause baby I didn't..

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

Ouuuuuuu
ouuuuuuuu

That should be me,
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
"and you wanted me to wait"
It's funny how you used that time
To have me replaced,
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me,
You're takin' "her" where we used to go,
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart,
It's working 'cause you know that...

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me... :)

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Old Pics - Atuk2, Moyang2

Name: Nyudang

My cousin inherit her name: Esther Nyudang

Name: Baba anak Asok

My brother inherit his name: Cliftton Baba anak Nyepit

Name: Koh Anak Asok

Again, my cousin inherit his name: Spencer Koh anak Andol

Can you find any similarities? :)



My late Grandpa: Lida anak Koh

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Ngajat, Poco-poco, tuak, beer = The Joy of Gawai 2011

My family n I went back to Pelagus, Kapit
to celebrate Gawai this year
and it was the most unforgettable Gawai EVER!!

I have already posted all the photos on FB
and decided to post some videos here
as requested by someone :)

This is a video of my dad performing Iban's traditional dance 'Ngajat'
My dad is always a good Ngajat dancer
He amazed me for so many times :)

Video of us performing Poco-poco or "Copo-copo"
Thanks to our "Cigu Jeffry"


He's the one who taught us how to "Copo-copo"
hahaha :)

Eating biscuits+wasabi+super spicy chili sauce
hahaha :)

There are more videos, too bad I cant upload them
coz the video size is soooo big :(
I will try to upload other video soon ya~

I really enjoyed myself Gawai this year
Dun know when i will be able to
celebrate Gawai with them again
I missed all of them already :(

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FUCK MY LIFE!!!!

In life, all i wanna do is to make my parents happy

so i juz followed what my parents said
in the end, i'm the one who got stuck in the middle
and that's what i feel today.

I have my own dreams
I've planned to achieve those dreams
to make my parents happy
But my parents wanted me to follow their dreams
i dont have that chances to convince them
Again, i followed what they said.

sometimes i juz wanna quit
i'm so depressed
yet i'm crying now
i hate my uni life
my uni life is totally sucks
nobody hears me
nobody listen!!

I wish that i'm doing something that i dreamed of today
but then, i'm struggling for this stupid fucking research proposal
learning accounting, marketing.. and what the....??!!
i dont want those craps!
FUCK!!!! I hate my life!!
how i wish i can juz screw up and quit!
i wanna runaway from this shit!

:"""""""""(

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Damn!

I'm currently searching for some
info for my group's informative speech
so called presentation next week!
Our topic is "What's wrong with being single?"
I'm a bit worried about this topic at first
i thot we wont have that much info to talk about
and would it be interesting?

Damn, i was totally wrong!
there are lotssss of info
articles, videos, misconceptions,
how to enjoy ur life being single
there are even myths about being single!!
And i was like.... Woooooo!!
what's wrong with our people??
what's wrong with being single??
then only i started to feel that
this topic is quiet interesting
i've known so many people
who are still single out there
they are in different ages
and they are totally okay!
yet, they enjoy their life so much!
yeah, they do feel lonely sometimes
BUT
it is wayyyyyy better if u feel lonely when u're single
than being in a relationship but u're still lonely!!
ohh, am i talking about me now??
no? yes? yes? no?
pathetic!!


hahahaha!~
Now i'm okay with this topic
to all single people our there
dont worry!!
i'll fight for u guys
muahahaha!!

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Hello assignments & tests, bye2 life :(

There goes my life again
my days are SUPER pack now
Lotsa assignments to WORK on
crazy days just started
been squeezing my brain to THINK
It is only second week
Now, I'm stress!!
*sigh*


Quick reminder

1. Replacement class on Friday, 28th Jan (11.30am-1.30pm)
2. Comm. Skills Test on Mon (31st Jan)
   
3. Wed (2nd Feb) NO CLASS!! *woot2*
4. Comm. Skills presentation on Tues (8th feb)
5. Cons. Behaviour - academic writing & oral presentation

There will be another test and assignment due
after CNY
but the date is not confirm yet!
Definitely, lots of things to do
the assignments are all about reading, advertising, recording
downloading videos and yada yada yada.........



Well, that's all for today
will update again soon
*if i got time to do so*
Muahahahahahahaha!

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Back to school!!~

yup, hari ini kembali ke sekolah
seperti biase aku liat nak bgn!
kelas pkul 10.30 pagi
pkul 9.20 baru aku bgn
mandi bersiap2
dah pkul 9.50
pastu aku drive memang tak ingatlah
nasib baik sunway tak jam
hohohohoho ;)

walaupun aku sgt benci pegi kelas
dgn hati tak rela
nak x nak pun aku kne hadap jugak!
walaupun terpaksa
yg penting skang
janji aku lulus stiap sem
aku nak hbis kan degree cepat2
aku nak blah dari sunway
pastu aku nk kejar cita2 aku plak!!
muktamad~

hari ni trase tension yg amat
tak settle lagi satu masalah
timbul lagi satu
pehhh, sabar jela
smoga esok smuanya ok
"aal izz well"

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Bila otak dah masuk air :)

Bila otak tengah tak betul
Pada mulanya nak gila2 ngan adik
tapi adik hanya boleh bertahan skejap
die dah tak tahan nak gelak
hahahahhaha :P

Boom boom powwww!! :P

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Remembering Xmas 2009

Juz watched xmas 2009 videos
Terasa sgt rindu pada kampung
huhuhuhu :"(

The cousins :)

Rindu nak makan sedap2 :(

Rindu nak mandi sungai :(

Rindu suasana kat sana :(

Sesi menari poco2 versi KL
hahaha :P

'

masa utk berkelah heheh
best yg amat!
nak balik kmpung!! :(

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Terima kasih

Terima kasih sebab:

1) buat saya macam tunggul

2) buat saya mcm xde prasaan

3) awak skang sibuk dgn dunia awak

4) abaikan saya

5) dah brubah n tak macam dulu

6) buat saya tertunggu2 slalu

7) koyak2kan hati saya

8) pusing2 balik crita sampai smua jadi salah saya

9) buat saya fed up nak ambil tau pasal awak

10) awak dah tak kisah apa saya rasa

Bila kita ada, tapi rasa macam takda, bukan ke lebih baik takda?
tapi saya tetap disini bertahan untuk apa yg saya ada
kalau awak perlukan saya, saya mmg sentiasa ada
awak pun tau kan
kalau awak tak perlu, awak mesti sibuk ngn dunia awak
takpa, saya pun dah biasa
saya sorang pun takpa, tak kisah
awak selalu kata saya tak faham awak
baiklah, memang saya tak pernah memahami awak
atau mungkin awak yg dah lupa?
awak kata mcm tu,
awak pernah ke memahami saya pulak?
Kalau awak cuba memahami saya
saya takkan rasa macam ni
buat apa saya nk sedih2 tak tentu pasal
awak fikirlah sendiri ye
sekian, terima kasih :)

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